249.7

249.7 is my starting weight. I'm 28 years old, and 6'1" tall and I dont like the way I look anymore. Ive tried diets before, well... that's not really fair to the diets, I should say I THOUGHT about diets before and tried to be more aware of the food Im putting in my mouth, but I often fell off within a day or two. I havnt narrowed it down to what the cause is, to be honest. One problem I know is that I eat a lot of fast food, but I dont really LIKE fast food. I feel sick after eating Jack in the Box or McDonalds. Then why do I eat there? Because its fast. I feel like i have such little time durring the day with how busy I am at work to actually prepare a meal, or take more than 5 minutes to run down to the nearest drive through, start eating on my way back, and be finished or only have 1 burger left when I sit in my chair. Oh, that brings me to another point. I eat too much when I do eat. I know I do. Somedays I will try to be good and grab a sandwich at Subway, tell them to hold the mayo, and feel better about my lunch option, but as I drive away I find myself going through the Jack in the Box drive through for curly fries and feel like a fat ass as I eat them on my way back to work so no one sees when I get there. Yeah, I guess I do have a problem.

If someone asked me to describe myself, I dont know if the word active would come up. I could say without a doubt that it would have earlier in my life, but I'm not so sure now. I would describe myself now as... quick witted, funny, intelligent, hard working, married, soon to be father, video gamer, enjoys cooking but rarely does it, a sucker for terrible reality TV (which my wife watches but I cant turn away from... I tell her its like a train wreck that you cant help but look at), and... lets see... I dont sleep very well. There, that about sums me up. I get to work between 7:30 and 8:30am (I should be there around 7:00 - 7:30), I work until around 6pm, I get home around 6:30. We have dinner, sit down at 7:00 to watch some TV and our recorded shows from the night/week earlier, and then the wife goes to bed at 10pm and I play video games until midnight. Go to sleep. Repeat.

Ive been married for 2 1/2 years. I love my wife. We are expecting a child in August, a girl. Sympathy weight is a bitch and real. I gained about 15 pounds since she has been pregnant. I don't know if its from the extra eating we are doing, or the lack of exercise and activities we are able to do, or I'm sure both. I dont blame all the weight I've gained on my wife, but I was 185lbs when I met her 5 years ago, and now I've hit the 250 mark. My goal weight is 190-195, but In all honest, I don't care what I weight, I just want to feel and look healthy. I want to say my wife is supportive of me trying to loose weight, but when I told her I'm going to do it FOR REAL this time, she just said - OK, good luck. As in, I know you will be eating a double bacon ultimate cheeseburger by the end of the week. Its OK though, I know she wants me to loose it, and I know she has tried to nag and nag me about it in the past. Maybe she is just trying a different approach with me now. Either way, this is something I need to do on my own - and of course with the internets. Hi internets.

I actually "started" this weight loss diet/exercise yesterday - May 30th, 2011. I'm not sure the format I will use for this blog, or what Im going to say, but I figured it might help me and keep me motivated. Even if no one reads this, its still something I can use. So... here we go.