June 7th - 243.3

I hate the scale.

I find myself being afraid when I step on it, Im also standing there thinking - well, I did have fries the other day, so Im sure it will be right back up to 250 now. But alas, its dropping.

To be honest, I dont feel like Im doing anything really different. Im just really thoughtful about how many calories a day Im eating. I have also recognized my "temptations". Snacks. I thought it was my lunches before, and granted, I did eat shit for lunches, but on average they were not that bad, maybe 400 more calories for a lunch than Im eating now. Snacks are the worst. chips and salsa or guacamole, or just some cheese on crackers or something - gets me. I started to realize the calories in just a handful of chips. my snacks were turning into more calories than my actual meals.

The worst was when my wife left this weekend, and I was home alone. So what do I do? I sit in my boxes and play video games all day. Hell ya! I got a few beers, made myself some nachos, and had a kick ass Saturday. 2800 calories later it was not the best Saturday weight wise, but hell - who cares.

One thing to note. Im doing alot of stuff without cheese. I find that cheese is just an extra topping that can be done without, and also adds to pointless calories. Is a burger still just as good without the cheese? I think so, maybe not AS good, but still good. Sandwiches the same. There isnt really anything I can think of where I would say - yep, Cheese makes this. Without Cheese its crap. So, im doing it without cheese.

Exercise. I havnt done much of it so far. I do job walks durring the day that takes an hour, but I havnt found time to go to the gym yet. My daily schedule is, wake up at 6:30, at work by 7:30, work till 5:30, home at 6. Eat at 7. watch some TV till 10 with the wife. She goes to bed, I stay up till 11 playing some video games. Repeat.